To be or not to be

It has been a year since I started working. My professional life has started influencing my character a lot. All through my life, I have been a very emotional and sentimental character, but now I see that I have to change, change rapidly, because in a corporate world, there is no value for sentiments. I have learnt a lot during this short period. One of the most important lessons that I learnt was, “Never be sentimental or emotional, because whenever you are sentimental, you tend to depend on a person or thing which makes you dependant and affects your growth, never be emotional because people may use your emotions (Read “screw you up”) and may take advantage of your emotions”.

I also learnt that self-confidence, career orientation, and professionalism are the keys to succeed in life. My biggest problem is that in order to become a professional, I have to mend my ways, to say it shortly, “I have to be what I never was” that is Non-sentimental, professional, career oriented and in a way, selfish. When I asked myself this question, “what do I want to be, just another good human being or a great achiever”, the answer that I got was clear and obvious. My brain agrees with it, but my heart vehemently disagrees. So I find myself in a dilemma “To be myself and live an ordinary life or change my ways to become an achiever”. The questions still remains answered “To be or not to be”. Only time will answer.

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