Love, Life, and Destiny
Life sometimes can be bittersweet. I always knew that there had be a day when I would say goodbye to my old love, but never expected it to end it in a bitter sweet way. Yes, I got engaged to a distant relative recently and it happened before the very eyes of my former love, Boss Lady. It seemed somewhat ironical to think that a person, whom you loved so much, would be the first to hear the news of your engagement and wish you "Good Luck" much to your dismay.
Truth be said, I was hurt and it really bothered me to be in such an embarassing situation. On one end, I have my prospective life partner sitting besides me and on the other end, I have my love, now my ex-love, someone whom I loved more than my life for over a decade, looking at me with a mysterious smile.
My mind raised a thousand questions. Why did she smile? Was she relieved? Was she happy that her guy found a better girl? Was she really happy or simply did not care about whatever happened? Did she sigh in relief that I wouldn't/couldn't disturb her anymore.
As I said those fateful words, "Yes, I am ok with the Girl", I could hear sighs of joy on the faces of my parents, smiles around, and people sighing in relief. But all I cared was about that one person. When I looked around, I just saw her smile. As all the drama occurred and I returned home to Chennai, I thought of all those sweet moments that I had with her. Boy! Such wonderful moments. How I wish I had succeeded.Alas, such is love, such is life.
All that has happened now will be history and all that matters is what is going to happen". I recently heard that Boss lady got engaged too. And the most ironical thing is that her marriage is just hardly a month away from mine. Well, I guess that great endings happen only in films. I called her yesterday to have a small discussion before we finally part our ways. As I dialed her number, it occurred to me that this could probably be the beginning of the end. As she picked the phone and said Hello, I gasped for breath. I took a few moments and finally told her that it was me on the other end. She spoke for about 20 minutesbefore finally ending the conversation with those fateful words, "I can't say my husband is a smart man. To be frank, he is not that good looking. But I said yes because he was a good man like you. Wishing you all the very best, my dear friend". As I disconnected the call, I wondered what she meant. "If she wanted a good man, why couldn't it be me?", I said to myself as I walked away in grief. Such is the tragic fate of love, such is life and destiny :(
"Oh dear friend, I need to say good bye.
Please don't ever ask me, WHY?
Because although I know the reason, I can never tell
that life without you is as good as hell........
I will always love you no matter what
because even as we part, we will stay close at heart.
I always wished that we would live together in harmony,
but such is love, life and destiny.
So Good bye dear, till we meet again.
I wish we could relive those good old days again."
posted by Aswin Kini @ Sunday, December 18, 2011
6 comments
6 Comments:
Aww...I really do not know whether to feel sorry or be glad for you! Trust me..that is life! I know it's easy to advice, but hard to get over the harsh reality! But you just have to move on! This is the most exciting phase in your life after being engaged..coz there's so much to look forward...Spend the time with the one destined as your life partner instead of ruminating over the past! There's a famous saying "There's so much of pleasure in loving than being beloved". So don't lock up your love! Come over this soon,and wishing you all happiness in this new phase!!
Totally agree with what Anu said. Ashwin this is coming from a person who has known you for about 9 years now. We all had our plans when we left College, dreams, ambitions, so much. Somewhere down the line 'love' happened and well it did not work out.
'Nothing lasts forever' be it the good things in life or the bad! That phase of heartbreak is thankfully now over. Write down all those memories of her that you have on a sheet of paper. Seal it in an envelope and perhaps burn it up as a symbol of your sacrifice. The time and energy that was expended on a love-story that did not work.
Once you are done with the burning, light up a lamp in your heart for your bride-to-be and plan your future:)
All the best man!
This is very sad to me. I'm sorry you can't be with your love. Did you not get to be with your love because you had to have an arranged marriage? There is good advice in the other posts.
I do hope you are happy and free from the bondage of the past.
@Vaish: Thank you pa, I am happily settled now. I am also happy that my love has settled down well too. Please convey my regards to your family. Take care, be in touch.
Mahesh: Happens machi, we can't help it. I can't help but recollect the lines of an old tamil song "Ninaithadellam nadanthu vittal deivam yedhumillai (If everything we wished came true, there would be no god)". As they say, destiny had other plans for me. Hopefully life will be good,
Besides, I asked god for gold and got Platinum. So no worries :) Thanks for the kind words, buddy. Friends like you make life beautiful.
@Anonymous, I am not sure we know each other, but thanks for your concern. Yes, i am indeed free of bondage from the past. But it does hurt sometimes. Thanks for your comment.
I saw a comment here a few weeks ago about Dr Agbazara and I decided to contact him as instructed, thanks to this man for bringing joy to me as wished for. I followed instructions which he gave in order to get my lover back who left me and the kids for 3years now, but thanks to Dr Agbazara because they are back to me now for good and we are happy together. Please do contact him for help too if in a relationship problem via email at: ( agbazara@gmail.com ) OR Via WhatsApp on: ( +2348104102662 ). And testify for yourself.
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